CHALICE

Did I sound jealous again?

Or did I see photos of her

On your phone again?

Is your heart still with her?

Or am I being irrational?

I hate myself for not going

Crazy

This is not epic tale

Whether she’s your girlfriend

Or just a friend

I’m trying very hard to be cool

With it

I’m trying not to show signs of

Disappointment

I’m trying not to imagine what

Went on behind closed doors

If I am to accept

This is a relationship between

Just you and me

Make me believe that there’s

No third person.

Make me believe that she

Knows that I exist.

And I hope she cares about me

I hope that she knows what

She’s causing between us

I hope she knows the silent

Pain she causing me

But wait, let me spray this

Fragrance on you

I’m not jealous

But I hope she smells

This perfume

It’s called inquire

And I hope she inquires

About the pain

I’m going through.

I don’t want to shear a tear

So forgive me if you see me do

However if,

She’s sleeping with you

Don’t forget me

I know you’ve a history

With her

But I’m your boyfriend

Please don’t forget me

When you are with her.

The thing is that

I’m just insecure.

Its breaking

My hearts into pieces

That you knew her

Before you knew me

But whilst I let you through the door

Just remember that

I’m the one who

Will still be waiting.